Please remember to take care of yourself. It sounds as though all of the weight is on you right now and that could start to be crushing. If you have a breakdown, what then? Keep trying to find that release that gives you a break, mentally, from all that is going on.This has got me thinking. I've always suffered with low self esteem. Something people might not realise when they talk to me as I always seem outgoing, loud and positive, but sometimes it's easier to put the show on than admit to the issues.
Why I'm writing this is, at the moment, my missus is suffering with depression and has also started treatment for diabetes. This has got her really stressed and snappy (well snappier than usual) and I am trying to be the person of stability in the relationship. It will do her no good if I go to bits so I am trying to hold it together.
What I have realised over the last week or so is that I am getting more and more down. I'm worried about her condition, and feel like I'm walking on eggs around her whilst trying to be positive. On top of that work is very busy and I'm feeling that I am getting no rest from that 24/7. I feel mentally and physically exhausted.
Come February of next year I will be moving to a 3 day week (personal choice as reach 66 but carrying on working) and that may help as we will have more time together but at the moment it's hard.
And, daft as it may sound, having a dog is a real bonus for us. He helps me to get out of the house to take him for a walk, and she dotes on him.