Wow, what a bummer.
Many moons a go I was going through a really dark time and the two things I learnt from it all was just to keep looking forward because there is ALWAYS light at the end of the tunnel ......................... (if you want to see it), and, also, you'll soon realise who your true friends are and they'll help you through for sure, as, I'm sure, will all of us on here if ever you feel the need to vent your spleen at any time.
Take care fella, it will work out.
Oh, and don't dwell on the past, you ain't going to change it!
Phil.. sorry to hear this.. but as many have said .. onwards and upwards.. on the plus side, get yourself onto the course - Those balls won’t hit themselves.
You could take up a new hobby.. I m told collecting Golf Shoes is very popular on this forum.. as long as you don’t threaten the Imelda Marcos of the forum