How has Coronavirus affected me? I've taken some time to mull this question recently as we approach 2 years of living with this.
How has it affected me...? At the first lockdown, I lost my job. Or more accurately, my contract was not renewed. I spent 2 months with no income and no support due to the nature of the job that I do. I was fortunate that I found a new contract quite quickly. The second lock down saw that contract be ended. Again I found myself if a limbo. But this time I was very fortunate that my contact network found me ok. But it's an incredibly difficult position to be in asking how will I support my family, keep a roof over our heads.
In the space of just over a year, I lost three people very close to me. Not one of them older than I am (43, 40 and 40). My best friend of 38 years died of a brain haemorrhage, sudden and unavoidable, but I couldn't get to say my final goodbyes to someone that had such an impact on my life and could only watch on a computer screen as he was laid to rest with only 8 of his large and tight knit family in attendance.
My childhood friend of 35 years succumbed to a cancer that went untreated in it's most vital stage because treatment was not available in a timely manner. I was lucky enough to be in a small group of 15 people that were allowed to attend the funeral and say goodbye.
A man that is less of a friend and more of a brother from another mother (and co-best man at my wedding) lost his wife to suicide caused by being removed from everything and everyone that she loved, as a very social person lockdown hit hard and the mental impact was too great. A brilliant, warm, funny and compassionate person lost forever. A family of 3 teenagers and a husband stripped of their mother and their wife.
What's the point of this? Well, it's primarily answering the question, how has Coronavirus affected me. Quite strongly it would seem. Financial impact, mental and emotional impact and loss of people who didn't have or die FROM covid.
There's no real point other than that, and just to get my musings of the last day or so out of the head and in to the ether.
This thread has mainly become about should we have done this or should we have done that and whether or not the lockdowns had any impact. Believe me when I say, they might not have for you, and I am genuinely happy for you if they didn't, but be assured that for others, they and the wider effects of Covid certainly did.