Achilles
Challenge Tour Pro
So, another qualifier and another 0.1. Not the end of the world you might think, but boy does it feel like it.
Started off ok - par, bogey, par before playing like an absolute turd. No pars, a few bogeys, the rest doubles, triples and an N/R on the 18th due to two woeful tee-shots and the light going. That meant my first N/R of the year and I feel disgusted with myself.
I played last night at Cotswold Hills (awesome track) and whilst I started off poorly I played some great stuff once I got going. I put the early wobble down to rushing to the tee from work. No such excuse today.
Afternoon off and got there in plenty of time. A nice relaxed putt before going out, feeling good. Lo-and-behold a round full of slices, hooks, tops, thins, fats. The only thing I didn't do was hit a sherman. I worked out I scored 23 points. My worst by a mile this year.
My confidence is shot to pieces and I really don't know what to do. I've been here before but have craved the challenge of fixing things and improving. Right now, I really cannot be bothered with it. I've never felt so angry on the course and whilst I tried to keep it in check I had a few selfish outbursts. The only thing I enjoyed today was the weather and the company. I HATED playing. Having missed a lot of last season through injury I came back grateful to be able to play. Somehow I can't get that feeling back.
I've got a Medal on Sunday and a charity golf day on Tuesday next week but after that I'm thinking of a few weeks off. Competitive golf is killing my love of the game right now!!
If anyone has any words of wisdom, feel free to share. If not, I shall wallow in my own self-pity for a few days.
Started off ok - par, bogey, par before playing like an absolute turd. No pars, a few bogeys, the rest doubles, triples and an N/R on the 18th due to two woeful tee-shots and the light going. That meant my first N/R of the year and I feel disgusted with myself.
I played last night at Cotswold Hills (awesome track) and whilst I started off poorly I played some great stuff once I got going. I put the early wobble down to rushing to the tee from work. No such excuse today.
Afternoon off and got there in plenty of time. A nice relaxed putt before going out, feeling good. Lo-and-behold a round full of slices, hooks, tops, thins, fats. The only thing I didn't do was hit a sherman. I worked out I scored 23 points. My worst by a mile this year.
My confidence is shot to pieces and I really don't know what to do. I've been here before but have craved the challenge of fixing things and improving. Right now, I really cannot be bothered with it. I've never felt so angry on the course and whilst I tried to keep it in check I had a few selfish outbursts. The only thing I enjoyed today was the weather and the company. I HATED playing. Having missed a lot of last season through injury I came back grateful to be able to play. Somehow I can't get that feeling back.
I've got a Medal on Sunday and a charity golf day on Tuesday next week but after that I'm thinking of a few weeks off. Competitive golf is killing my love of the game right now!!
If anyone has any words of wisdom, feel free to share. If not, I shall wallow in my own self-pity for a few days.